Just received a phone call from cliff and as usual it is bad news. Lauren , I don't know if you are viewing this but I really miss you so much. For the past 2 months , I had been fighting the urge to call you for I clearly remembered our promise. But why is it that you have to cut off all forms of contact with me? Why is it that when you miss home , I cant be the one that send you postcards and emails? Why is it that even when I send you messages , all I get were very standard answers?You are kidding me aren't you? I admit that we can never be as close as we were but hey , all that I am asking is for you to share your troubles with me. Do you have any idea how horrible I feel when Cliff called and tell me that you are sick? Are you kidding me? I am the last to know? -.-

Keep my options open? Bastard , I did not even say that I was going to wait for you. Why are you so paranoid? I am not even hurt.I need a friend like you .A friend that will count the stars with me when I forget how to smile , a person that will sing song for me after you mock my singing. Evil twin , there is no way that I am gonna forget everything that we went thru together. When I see you leave , I smiled ; do you have any idea how much it is killing inside? Nevertheless i still smiled , for I really want you to know that you can always count on this girl here if you are down. Lauren Law , for the love of god , just open your eyes and see who is here for you . Stop avoiding me.. please.. I really have no other alternatives to get this message to you. Please .. I am not that dumb. I will not give up everything in Singapore just to be with you. So stop acting like I am a little kid . I know exactly what I am doing. For once , just trust me and let me make it right. Nobody said that studying overseas was going to be easy and this first few months will probably be the roughest period of time. JUST BLOODY REPLY MY MESSAGES BEFORE I TAKE A FLIGHT AND GET TO YOUR APARTMENT.

Ok that was kinda exaggerating but hey , I know you know what I am trying to get across right?

You Cant just avoid me for life. I just wanna be there for you like how you were here for me. Enough said , if you still insist in avoiding me then I guess we really have nothing much to say anymore. Since you still do not understand me well enough to know that I am not foolish enough to leave everything I have here without a plan.4 years of friendship , baby , I trust that you will know what I am saying.

Your evil twin

Jiaying

xoxo

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