Despite already knowing the truth , it still hurts. So i mean who i am kidding? You will never like a girl like me. It was a known fact that you were missing someone else and you wanted to fight for me. Perhaps you never meant to lead me on. It was me all along ; i kept reading into every single sentence that you said and lying to myself.

So who am i to blame anybody? I was the one that led myself onto this journey. I couldn love someone that i barely know . Name a guy, just any giy . Richard , lauren , sebast? Anyone one of them knows me so much more than you do. So who am i deceiving? When will i finally get the facts right?

Agnes told me to hold on because she felt that there was a chance , afterall he wasn attached. But look at it now , he love her. So much more than i could even love him. He wants to see her everyday , he wants to fight fot her and he still miss her. After all this while , everything is back to square one.

Dont tell me anything about her please. I dont wanna know how perfect she is. YES I AM A FUCKING DUMB BITCH, how could i even allow myself to opn up to you? Why the hell did i forgive you time after time and believe that you will change . No you aren changing and you will never love me the way you love her.

Every single theory that i've came out was wrong. You love her. And what am i? A replacement of what you cant get. Alright, i got it. I am a hopeless romantic. I dreamt of every single perfect thing that we could achieve together. I think of it every day and night that perhaps together we will make a difference. Oh yeah? A dream that is.

3 times. Everytime you leave, i stood behind you and counted every single step. I wasted all my 11:11 on a guy that love another girl. Oh great. It is all my fault. I mean who could i blame?i made all this things possible. I gave you too much , i expected too much , i miss you too much and perhaps i love you too much. I loved you to the extent that i was terrified.

Now i know why you came back. You wanted to know what was wrong with you because you wanted to change. FOR HER. I couldn even find any other excuses to say that it was me that you love and not her. You wanted her to end school so you could spend more time with her.

I underestimated you. I forgot that a scopio is always that mysterious. Nothing was ever under my control.you live for her. You probably text her good morning everyday and i am sure there were those late night phonecalls. I feel horrible. In spite already expecting thos long time ago. I still feel , horrible.

This feeling is killing me. And everytime i think of you , i die a little more inside me. I wanna delete your contact , your msn , your twitter. But i am so afraif that i will lose you as a person. I wanna scream at you , i wanna get rid of all this pain in my heart. How could i even love someone that is in love with someone else?

Letting you go is no longer an option , it is the only way to solve this problem. I am sure you wont even feel a single shit when i am gone. Whatever it is , from this very moment on , i am over you.