I wanted to let you go . I swore i did. In fact till this very moment , i still could not get over the fact that you lead me on and then threw me aside. You still like her dont you? The girl that you bought sunflower for ; the girl that you thought of for every single moment of your days.

In my imagination , this girl is probably the most wonderful person on earth . She has the best body , prettiest face , beautiful personality , amazing sense of humor and a cognitive ability that would make you look at her every day and thank god for this creation. Yes that is her , a total contrast of me. She must be an angel to be able to grab your attention , so much so that you still miss her and wants to fight for her. I am sorry , your every single action meant too much to me. I didn mean to pry into your personal space , i am just attempting to know you better.

Why did you come back if you still love her so much? You aren really sorry were you? Do you have any idea how many times i read through our conversation to find the slightest loop hole to your conversations? ( i wanted to know why did you leave. ) there are too many questions that are left hanging and you probably wont even be back to answer them anymore.

You know what, i still dont hate you. I couldn even bring myself to say anything bad about you. Perhaps you weren even aware that your little actions actually meant a hell lot to me . It doesn matter anymore. I dont even expect to talk to you for the rest of my life again. I just find it a little hard to accept... How could you like a girl for so long and continued to lead me om? Perhaps i misinterperated your actions. Perhaps all the while your coldness was a form a deterence. Perhaps you said sorry simple because she was ignoring you like how you are ignoring me. I know .. I know..

To think of it in a greater scope ,Who am i to question you? ' you do whatever you want' yes that is you. And that is the you that i am so attracted to. I've been thinking alot while you are gone . I still want you to be happy. Please dont even be so freak out that you avoid me again . I just frankly wants you to be happy.

I am not feeling inferior but i kinda think that she is a better girl for you as well. She probably wont be so emotional that she tweet like 1000 tweets about how much she miss you ; she probably wont spam you like crazy ; she is probably so smart that she dont need you to teach her anything ; she probably wont tell you to bathe before 12 ; she probably could make you smile without doing anything stupid. Yes , she is probably the best girl on earth. You know what , nah , i dont hate you for not telling me the truth. Neither do i feel horrible because my crush is in love with another girl. I just feel kinda lost..

What should i do my dear? Yes i should just let go of you because we weren meant to be. But i really wish that you wont be unhappy ever again. I dont want this girl to hurt you any further. No one is good enough to hurt you that way anymore. Or maybe this is just my wishful thinking. You probably rather get rejected by her than to talk to me. Uh oh yeah , but i really tried.

You are a sunshine , you are a star and you were bornt with this capacity to achieve what nobody else can .i am sure someday somehow you will definitely get her. Till then , please still rmb to protect yourself. I really wish that i could stay , but nah , i am
Done with your mind games.

I am done with staring at the phone 24/7 , i am done with trying so hard to get over you. You may not know , but i will always save you a space in my mind. Be happy with her. And i really envy that pretty woman who got your heart.