One day , just one day , you will look back at me and realise how much i have changed and fucking hate yourself for letting me go. I know she was your dream and you would give up anything to be with her. Yea, i couldn deny the fact that i would probably do the same if lauren were to come back.

But hey , remember this , one day , when you are done loving her . You will realise that you've missed that one person tht was willing to give everything up for you , you will realise that you miss the girl that could wake up at the middle of the night just to make sure that you were well before we sleep. You will miss that girl that would go down right to you just to give you a big hug and vanish like a ghostz yes honey , i was the girl that will do it all just to make you the happiest person on earth. I was the one that would let go of all my pride and act silly , i was the one that would forgive you for every single mistake that you made. And i was the one that would still want you to be happy even though you let me
Go.I still believe that you've loved and argee that it is all that i bother. Honey , i really believe that you still loved me till that night. Every single action, every single word. You wouldn have done all of those stuff if you didn love me. You wont want to protect me , you wont wAnt to go out with me, you wont want to care about every single other guy in my life. I know you have tried honey. She was your dream and i honestly think that it is okay for you to finish that dream. But one day , just one day , i will turn out to be the best of me ,. And on the day that you finally realise that she is not the one that you are looking for , i will walk back into your life , give you the hug that i always wanted to give . Cook the promised meal , draw pretty cards for you , and tell you how much i really really loved you. With the best outfit , prettiest smile and everything that will make you love me.

Fret not, i will have a awesome
Boyfriend at that time. I am sure god will bring one to me. With my new looks , new smile , new clothes , smarter brain .at that time, you will hate yourself for letting a girl tht loved you so much go. I will be stronger , faster and way better.