Live , laugh , love

2012-01-23T01:43:00.001-08:00

The only consolation of goodbye is the glimmer of hope that there will still be another hello , someday , somehow. I am glad that we had the talk. Even though it is thru the talk that i realise that we are still very far apart , i am still glad that it happened. At least for now i know that you are still the happy little boy that i know.

Your love, you assurance and your comfort was all that i needed to survive. Now i have survived , ng weifeng , please be happy as well.

2011-12-28T11:42:00.001-08:00

I think i am over you. No more pain , no more tears. A little part of me is feeding on your guilt to survive and the larger part of me still wants you to be happy.

The xmas message was heartwarming. Thank you honey , thank you for showing me that i am still important to you. I am really glad that you left with an explanation. At least i know that a man like you was worth loving. The past cannot be forgotten , it can only be accepted. I want you to know that i will always love you , just the way you are. Your honesty , your humor , your coldness . I just want you to know that whoever you are , you are the man that i fell deeply for.

I really hope that she is treating you well. Is she drawing pretty things? Is she fixing awesome meals? I still miss you , will you miss me too?

2011-12-21T12:38:00.003-08:00

One day , just one day , you will look back at me and realise how much i have changed and fucking hate yourself for letting me go. I know she was your dream and you would give up anything to be with her. Yea, i couldn deny the fact that i would probably do the same if lauren were to come back.

But hey , remember this , one day , when you are done loving her . You will realise that you've missed that one person tht was willing to give everything up for you , you will realise that you miss the girl that could wake up at the middle of the night just to make sure that you were well before we sleep. You will miss that girl that would go down right to you just to give you a big hug and vanish like a ghostz yes honey , i was the girl that will do it all just to make you the happiest person on earth. I was the one that would let go of all my pride and act silly , i was the one that would forgive you for every single mistake that you made. And i was the one that would still want you to be happy even though you let me
Go.I still believe that you've loved and argee that it is all that i bother. Honey , i really believe that you still loved me till that night. Every single action, every single word. You wouldn have done all of those stuff if you didn love me. You wont want to protect me , you wont wAnt to go out with me, you wont want to care about every single other guy in my life. I know you have tried honey. She was your dream and i honestly think that it is okay for you to finish that dream. But one day , just one day , i will turn out to be the best of me ,. And on the day that you finally realise that she is not the one that you are looking for , i will walk back into your life , give you the hug that i always wanted to give . Cook the promised meal , draw pretty cards for you , and tell you how much i really really loved you. With the best outfit , prettiest smile and everything that will make you love me.

Fret not, i will have a awesome
Boyfriend at that time. I am sure god will bring one to me. With my new looks , new smile , new clothes , smarter brain .at that time, you will hate yourself for letting a girl tht loved you so much go. I will be stronger , faster and way better.

2011-12-21T12:38:00.001-08:00

A man like you could never be forgotten , a woman like me have been thru more than you could even expect.

Honey , i lost count of the days without you . I am just so worried about you ; so worried that you might be hurt , sonworried that you will feel lonely , so worried that you still refuse to bathe early. What should i do? What should do to make it all right again? Would she love you the way i always wanted to? Will she go the extra miles just to make you smile? I really really hope so.

I cant sleep baby , i am thinking of you. Thinking of all the sweet memories we had together and embracing every single bit of love left. ' the only love that we can keep , is the love we gave' i finally got this right. Honey , loving you makes me feel so alive and thence this is the only love that i am keeping even till now. Everything will be fine for me . How could a goodbye hurt me so deeply? I really really wonder. Perhaps i loved.truly madly deeply.

I dont care about anything anymore. It is not about me deserving you anot . I just have to keep working , keep fighting such that one day i will bevome stronger, faster and better. That is the only way to make myself feel like i am good enough. I wont stop praying for you .

2011-12-14T01:33:00.001-08:00

Honey , you are finally with her. Why do i feel that you dont even love her? Why do i feel that you were trying to relive your dream and trying so hard to convince yourself.

Its my instinct honey. I wont ever wanna let you go , i just want you to be happier than when you were with me. I hate to imagine you hugging her , and pleasing her in all the ways . You were such a goodfriend to me , why would you want to fade away from
Me because you are attached? Have you ever ever tried?

2011-12-10T06:28:00.001-08:00

I believe you honey. I know that you wont want to hurt me if you have a choice. And baby , i trust you . I know you well enough to understand that you did what you just did out of love.

If she is a better girl for you , i will take a step back , and give you all my wishes. You know it fwn , i will do whatever i can to make you smile. If letting you go is a way , then i will do it takes .Whats the point of converting love into sadness , hatred or guilt? I dont even love you that way , so why would i want you to stop loving her?

All i need to know is that i have left footprints in your life and that i have made you smile. I still trust that you will make the decision that benefits everyone one. You are no selfish guy my dear . Even till this very minute , i believe that you told me that we could not be close anymore because you loved me and you dont wanna lead me on. For that i am really grateful.

That was what i wanted to tell you all along as well. I just dunno how you will feel after i tell you that. Honey , i am really glad that you found someone you love so much , but please please please dont get hurt alright?

I am too fortunate to complain about the lost of love , i am too lucky to complain about you leaving. Nothing last forever , and that that matters is that you had tried your best and there were memory for you to hold on to. I know you have tried too silly. Thank you

2011-12-08T23:11:00.001-08:00

You finally told me the truth and there is enough of guessing. Sorry ? Was that all that you could say? Some part inside me already knew the truth.

But i just thought that it was all a revenge , i just wish that you were so angry with me for not being there for you that you just wanna make a sad as well. Especially when i took the courage to read your tweets. I feel that it was me ... And hey guess what , i was a fool again. But i am just too blinded to make the right guess again.

Anyway , i still wanna thank you. Thank you for all the wonderful times that you gave me. And most importantly , thank you for making me feel like i was alive once again. You were there when i had to get over janson and you were the one who taught me that life could still be perfect , with or without anyone in your life.

Dont be sorry. It is not your fault at all. Dont say sorry because we were close and you had to leave now , dont be sorry because we couldn be the same and there is nothing that you can di about it. Who is she? I really really wanna know who did i lose to.

My grieve wasn from the fact that you left . The true reason for my heartbreak was that we were close and i expected too much from you. I never wanted to be with you my dear , i always just wanted to be a friend that is close to your heart.

Now that i am so stupid that i unfollowed you on twitter , i guess i am really unforgiven. Regardless of what , this is probably god's way to ascertaining the fact that a guy like you and a girl like me couldn be friendss at all. I couldn figure out why the hell did i feel so sad when you leave but all i know was that i am glad for you.

If i could do this again , i will do it a million times. Even with the heartbreak. You were just so worth the while ; your smile makes me realise that there is still hope in life. I just wanna tell you how grateful i am to be part of your life and that you had impacted me more than you will ever know.

As much as i hate it , i know that you will make the right decision. Thank you for telling me the truth , if not i would still be living in the fantasy. Give me one last chance to call you baby. My sweet boy , what went wrong between us? Why couldn we be like how we use to be?

Goodbye baby , goodbye. What makes me feel strong is the fact that i've tried my best. I didn lose , i gained in my own way. For that i am eternally grateful. 381.

2011-12-07T13:40:00.003-08:00

It is the 7th day. Nothing seems to be amiss a week ago. I really have no idea what is going on. Why is it that you have to leave in such a way? Why cant you at least tell me that i am being a pain in the ass and that you hate me?

The previous relationship was a great failure and we did not even handle our breakup well . I thought you would be different , and i thought you were my sunshine. I cant believe i gave away my heart this easily , and i still couldn convince myself about this crush. It came at the most unexpected timing.

So why did you go? Silly , was it something that i said? For my whole entire life , no one had tried doing this to me. I have to let it go.

2011-12-07T13:40:00.001-08:00

I've lost count of what day it is today.tonight was miserable , i could not even get you out of my head. How i wish i could say something to make it all better?

What had got into me ? Why am i still holding on ? Screw instincts. I hate it for being faulty at such an important timing. Baby , i still couldn believe that you did that to me. I always thought that we were just on another trip to your hot and cold journey. I was so certain that you will talk to me soon and make everything goes right again. But nothing did. I am drowning in this bloody trap called love. With you , i am totally irrational.

I am glad that you will never pay attention to me enough that you will look at this blog. I DO NOT , want to be seen as a desperate bitch that is clinging onto you. In fact , i hate imagining what you will say to your crush. Sunshine, is it gonna be the same answer? ' i am not close to her . We aren even talking now , we aren friends. I could delete her if you want to.' is this what that you will say to her ? I am so afraid my dear.

I wish i could make it go right again. You have no idea how hard i was trying to block out all my emotions.how i wish i could just tell you that i lost your game and i am willing to do anything that you want me to , just to get you back. But this aren what you want . You just want to be with her isn it? You just needed her love to survive .

I know you are a man of passion , and what kills me the most is the fact that all my efforts to make you smile will never outweigh a little smile from her. I hate to admit the fact that my best was just tip of the iceberg for you. It dont suck to be me , it suck to see how perfect you are because i am me.

I honestly have no idea why i am so attracted to you. Perhaps i owed you in my past life. But honey , why? I may not be the one that knows you the best , but i am sure that that night wasn as simple as it seems. Why did you came back with a open heart? Why did you come back with a new attitude ? It appears to me that you listened. It seems like you were attempting to change , so that i will be happy. Perhaps i was misleading myself once again. But that night was the only thing that i could remember about you.

I wish you were mad at me ; because i could solve it with a sorry. Perhaps you are apologising because you know that you can never return to my feelings.dont you get it baby? I dont care about anything else. I just want you to be back , i just wanna talk to you like how we use to. Why is everyone so certain that you will be back? Why are they even giving me more and more false hope.

I am exhausted honey . I really wanna say goodbye. I still need to face the fact that you likes another girl and you will never think of me like how i think of you. I've tried my best . Buddy , was that all that matters?

2011-12-06T00:46:00.001-08:00

Despite already knowing the truth , it still hurts. So i mean who i am kidding? You will never like a girl like me. It was a known fact that you were missing someone else and you wanted to fight for me. Perhaps you never meant to lead me on. It was me all along ; i kept reading into every single sentence that you said and lying to myself.

So who am i to blame anybody? I was the one that led myself onto this journey. I couldn love someone that i barely know . Name a guy, just any giy . Richard , lauren , sebast? Anyone one of them knows me so much more than you do. So who am i deceiving? When will i finally get the facts right?

Agnes told me to hold on because she felt that there was a chance , afterall he wasn attached. But look at it now , he love her. So much more than i could even love him. He wants to see her everyday , he wants to fight fot her and he still miss her. After all this while , everything is back to square one.

Dont tell me anything about her please. I dont wanna know how perfect she is. YES I AM A FUCKING DUMB BITCH, how could i even allow myself to opn up to you? Why the hell did i forgive you time after time and believe that you will change . No you aren changing and you will never love me the way you love her.

Every single theory that i've came out was wrong. You love her. And what am i? A replacement of what you cant get. Alright, i got it. I am a hopeless romantic. I dreamt of every single perfect thing that we could achieve together. I think of it every day and night that perhaps together we will make a difference. Oh yeah? A dream that is.

3 times. Everytime you leave, i stood behind you and counted every single step. I wasted all my 11:11 on a guy that love another girl. Oh great. It is all my fault. I mean who could i blame?i made all this things possible. I gave you too much , i expected too much , i miss you too much and perhaps i love you too much. I loved you to the extent that i was terrified.

Now i know why you came back. You wanted to know what was wrong with you because you wanted to change. FOR HER. I couldn even find any other excuses to say that it was me that you love and not her. You wanted her to end school so you could spend more time with her.

I underestimated you. I forgot that a scopio is always that mysterious. Nothing was ever under my control.you live for her. You probably text her good morning everyday and i am sure there were those late night phonecalls. I feel horrible. In spite already expecting thos long time ago. I still feel , horrible.

This feeling is killing me. And everytime i think of you , i die a little more inside me. I wanna delete your contact , your msn , your twitter. But i am so afraif that i will lose you as a person. I wanna scream at you , i wanna get rid of all this pain in my heart. How could i even love someone that is in love with someone else?

Letting you go is no longer an option , it is the only way to solve this problem. I am sure you wont even feel a single shit when i am gone. Whatever it is , from this very moment on , i am over you.

2011-12-04T09:32:00.001-08:00

2011-12-04T09:02:00.001-08:00

I wanted to let you go . I swore i did. In fact till this very moment , i still could not get over the fact that you lead me on and then threw me aside. You still like her dont you? The girl that you bought sunflower for ; the girl that you thought of for every single moment of your days.

In my imagination , this girl is probably the most wonderful person on earth . She has the best body , prettiest face , beautiful personality , amazing sense of humor and a cognitive ability that would make you look at her every day and thank god for this creation. Yes that is her , a total contrast of me. She must be an angel to be able to grab your attention , so much so that you still miss her and wants to fight for her. I am sorry , your every single action meant too much to me. I didn mean to pry into your personal space , i am just attempting to know you better.

Why did you come back if you still love her so much? You aren really sorry were you? Do you have any idea how many times i read through our conversation to find the slightest loop hole to your conversations? ( i wanted to know why did you leave. ) there are too many questions that are left hanging and you probably wont even be back to answer them anymore.

You know what, i still dont hate you. I couldn even bring myself to say anything bad about you. Perhaps you weren even aware that your little actions actually meant a hell lot to me . It doesn matter anymore. I dont even expect to talk to you for the rest of my life again. I just find it a little hard to accept... How could you like a girl for so long and continued to lead me om? Perhaps i misinterperated your actions. Perhaps all the while your coldness was a form a deterence. Perhaps you said sorry simple because she was ignoring you like how you are ignoring me. I know .. I know..

To think of it in a greater scope ,Who am i to question you? ' you do whatever you want' yes that is you. And that is the you that i am so attracted to. I've been thinking alot while you are gone . I still want you to be happy. Please dont even be so freak out that you avoid me again . I just frankly wants you to be happy.

I am not feeling inferior but i kinda think that she is a better girl for you as well. She probably wont be so emotional that she tweet like 1000 tweets about how much she miss you ; she probably wont spam you like crazy ; she is probably so smart that she dont need you to teach her anything ; she probably wont tell you to bathe before 12 ; she probably could make you smile without doing anything stupid. Yes , she is probably the best girl on earth. You know what , nah , i dont hate you for not telling me the truth. Neither do i feel horrible because my crush is in love with another girl. I just feel kinda lost..

What should i do my dear? Yes i should just let go of you because we weren meant to be. But i really wish that you wont be unhappy ever again. I dont want this girl to hurt you any further. No one is good enough to hurt you that way anymore. Or maybe this is just my wishful thinking. You probably rather get rejected by her than to talk to me. Uh oh yeah , but i really tried.

You are a sunshine , you are a star and you were bornt with this capacity to achieve what nobody else can .i am sure someday somehow you will definitely get her. Till then , please still rmb to protect yourself. I really wish that i could stay , but nah , i am
Done with your mind games.

I am done with staring at the phone 24/7 , i am done with trying so hard to get over you. You may not know , but i will always save you a space in my mind. Be happy with her. And i really envy that pretty woman who got your heart.

2011-11-18T18:32:00.000-08:00

Been too long since i talked to you. 6 freaking days without anything from you ; I must be so damn unimportant in your eyes. I resist all sort of temptation to think of you. I watched countless dramas , had up to 5 phonecalls per day just to keep my mind off you. Then , i finally came to the conclusion that i will really never be able to get over you. I looked through our conversations day in day out , just to catch the glimpse of hope.

You used to detect my moodswings and do all that you can to just make me smile. It is not that i am unaware of how Alevel could get into the nerves of people at times ; i just couldn understand your dao-ness. I am in fact an easily contented person , a simple good morning message could make my day baby. Why did you go when you have a million reasons to stay and why am i stayinh when i have a million reasons to leave? I gave you nothing but the best yet you were always acting like i am nothing but a passer by. When did we lose it all? What have i done wrong my dear?

I get it though. Sometimes you dont have to do anything wrong sometimes you can give up your time and smile just for a man that wont even bother looking back. I know baby , i know it all.I just haven found the way to get over you. This love is too overwhelming and unrivalled. I simply did not expect myself to go to such extent.

I am extremely exhausted. My energy is depleting day by day ; my heart insisted on gripping onto all possible forms of hope. Hope? Faith? I am letting go all of those. To be frank , i have mever felt like this. Regardless of how much i needed you , it is a thing of the past now. I will keep my heads high , i will not let anyone see me cry. You will be happy amd so will i. Perhaps this is karma .

2011-11-12T00:37:00.001-08:00

歌词：

曲/词：小虫.Johnny Chen
有一只鸟孤单的在天上
今天天气不怎样
想飞也飞不出那个网
他仍努力的摆动翅膀
今天天又亮
整夜的苦想
我还相信她应该不会是那样
旧日的份量
恩爱的模样
我好象已经没有资格再勉强
啊哈
就让她去吧不要再委屈
只愿你会记得我
有个傻瓜爱过你
啊哈
我把我的难过留给我自己
美丽的相聚
还是想说谢谢你
有一只鸟孤单的在飞翔
今天天气不晴朗
想飞也飞不出你的网
他仍努力的摆动翅膀
迎面风戚戚
望着门关闭
一双想你的眼睛不堪沙砾
你会去那里
何时再回家
我已经好象已经没有资格再问你
啊哈
就让她去吧不要再委屈
只愿你会记得我
有个傻瓜爱过你
啊哈
我把我的难过留给我自己
美丽的相聚
还是想说谢谢你
只愿你会记得我
有个傻瓜爱过你
啊哈
我把我的难过留给我自己
美丽的相聚
还是想说谢谢你

This is everything that i wanna tell you. if you can understand this , you will understand how much I cared.

2011-11-11T23:15:00.000-08:00

North Giraffe space Wilco Elephant Indigo space Fork enchanted Nancy Germany

I know it is kinda ridiculous to tell you that I have a crush on you ; and you will probably think that i am being superficial. I hate myself for doing this as well.Until the moment that I read our past conversations , I still assumed that I purely regarded you as a friend. What a joke isn't it ? Why am i having a crush on someone that I barely know ? I honestly have no freaking idea.

Call me stupid , call me dumb. Despite saying that it wouldn't be a bad idea to get myself into another relationship and experience the feeling of love again , I turned down offers after offers.Not because I thought too highly of myself or too lowly of them . I was just searching for the connection .Now that I think of it , screw connection I would say. I reject people that was willing to reply me instantly , reject people that was always there to offer me with a comfortable shelter and crush on a guy that don't even bother to reply my messages.Time has proved time and again that you are so not into me but every time you bother to take initiative to text me , I will just fall head over heels back into your love.Now , this is how dumb love can make one feel. I could simply forgive and forget every bad thing that you did to me as long as you are willing to type a longer message.

You can tweet but you cannot reply me. You can dota but you cannot just tell me goodnight.You can talk to other girls but you cannot even reply my 10 messages long good morning messages. I know sometimes you tried to talk to me but I guess I needed more love.You vanished for 4 days and came back acting like as if nothing happened. I know I am nobody to complain. To even have your sweetness a month back was an honor. I have lied to myself enough , you aren't that busy after all are you? You just don't need me enough to spend more time and effort on me. All in all , you were sick of me. Who cares if I am a nice girl actually , you craved for someone better than me.

Now as I am typing all this , I could say that I am already too dishearten to wish for anything more.I just want to say goodbye and tell you that I have really tried.I may have failed but at least I caught a glimpse of heaven. You are a smart guy and I know everything will work well with or without me.I have absolutely no rights to tell you to stop ignoring someone that cares because I am guilty of that too.Someone better will take over me eventually and give you the due support that you require. This time I really have to go ... For the longer I stay , the weaker I get. I will miss you but I have better things to look forward in the days ahead. Thank you for all the memories silly. It will probably be one of the greatest lesson in my whole entire life. You are my first failure and I will keep you right in my heart. you taught me knowledge that are way beyond academics .

You were the first man who spoke words that are as hurtful as the swords . Yet it is because of this that got me so into you. No one dared to attack me right in my face with evidence as cold as steel.I got aggressive then I realise that being direct was a long lost virtue. After all , who would risk getting hate just to help another person grow? You complemented my flaws with your past experiences and guided me towards the right path. Yes , that is why I called you my star.

You have an arsenal of weapons ; your killer smile , your unique sense of humor , your cute and awkward shyness when we talk about sensitive topics. On top of that , honesty and intelligence were deeply endowed in you. I do not believe that you are a man without passion , you probably just hid it away from me.

I couldn't forget how we used to talk. When you used mi to make me smile , when try with all your might to make me smile. I remember how I used to flare up because you didn't care enough ; and you will tell me that you will change.I remember how happy I was when you sent me long messages , I could hardly wipe the smile off my face when you sent me good morning message and call me cute. 381.It is all in the past now. At least we used to be like that. i really almost forget the real you already. I tried to tell myself that you are just busy and stressed out , I still insist on staying right behind you so that I can give you faith when you are tired. For the past 2 months , I had made use of every part of my faith to stay strong. But silly I am really sorry , I am still the weak little girl that needs to be coax.

I always wanted to be that girl that would brighten your day just by a simple good morning message , I always wanted to be that girl that you will share your troubles and shit with. But I guess I am not good enough and I dont deserve a guy like you. Maybe you will never read this blog ,maybe you will never know how I really feel. Maybe you will just forsake this friendship and start avoiding me for real. But I know I have tried enough and when I look back years later , I will smile and be proud of myself. After i finish this post , I would delete your messages and contact. It is time to move on dear girl , he will never look at you the way you look at him.

Goodbye silly , I will really miss you. And i hate to leave.

2011-11-08T21:44:00.000-08:00

Been slacking my life away for this whole entire week. Woke up at like 630 to ensure that weifeng is awake and started talking crap with bestie. Sometimes I am still amuse about the fact that me and jon made such good friends. He is talented in terms of guitar and I am musically challenged.He is so good with him gp and i suck at english. Well well , maybe perfect strangers really make good friends. He never fail to send me good morning message every single day. Even though we are always talking crap , but i really do enjoy this companionship. It makes me feel as though he is always there.

Whenever anyone bullies me , he will be the first to want to whack that person . Whenever his crush do anything awesome to him , I will be the first person he tells it to and we will be screaming in joy. Whenever my crush dont reply my messages , HE WILL ALWAYS BE THE FIRST ONE TO OFFER HIS SHOULDER AND EARS. There were too many things that we shared and I am so grateful to have him here with me all the time. I am sure that we will create more memories bestie , and you still owe me my more than words :D

2011-11-08T02:03:00.000-08:00

Just received a phone call from cliff and as usual it is bad news. Lauren , I don't know if you are viewing this but I really miss you so much. For the past 2 months , I had been fighting the urge to call you for I clearly remembered our promise. But why is it that you have to cut off all forms of contact with me? Why is it that when you miss home , I cant be the one that send you postcards and emails? Why is it that even when I send you messages , all I get were very standard answers?You are kidding me aren't you? I admit that we can never be as close as we were but hey , all that I am asking is for you to share your troubles with me. Do you have any idea how horrible I feel when Cliff called and tell me that you are sick? Are you kidding me? I am the last to know? -.-

Keep my options open? Bastard , I did not even say that I was going to wait for you. Why are you so paranoid? I am not even hurt.I need a friend like you .A friend that will count the stars with me when I forget how to smile , a person that will sing song for me after you mock my singing. Evil twin , there is no way that I am gonna forget everything that we went thru together. When I see you leave , I smiled ; do you have any idea how much it is killing inside? Nevertheless i still smiled , for I really want you to know that you can always count on this girl here if you are down. Lauren Law , for the love of god , just open your eyes and see who is here for you . Stop avoiding me.. please.. I really have no other alternatives to get this message to you. Please .. I am not that dumb. I will not give up everything in Singapore just to be with you. So stop acting like I am a little kid . I know exactly what I am doing. For once , just trust me and let me make it right. Nobody said that studying overseas was going to be easy and this first few months will probably be the roughest period of time. JUST BLOODY REPLY MY MESSAGES BEFORE I TAKE A FLIGHT AND GET TO YOUR APARTMENT.

Ok that was kinda exaggerating but hey , I know you know what I am trying to get across right?

You Cant just avoid me for life. I just wanna be there for you like how you were here for me. Enough said , if you still insist in avoiding me then I guess we really have nothing much to say anymore. Since you still do not understand me well enough to know that I am not foolish enough to leave everything I have here without a plan.4 years of friendship , baby , I trust that you will know what I am saying.

Your evil twin

Jiaying

xoxo

WHAT ARE WORDS

2011-11-07T23:31:00.000-08:00

This week is a peaceful week. With pw coming to an end and promotional results coming out , I am actually pretty glad that I survived this J1 year. Decided to create a blog once again ; perhaps it is my everlasting urge to express my emotions or maybe I just wish that someday somehow someone will read my blog and tell me that they feel the same way as I do.

Well that aside , I had a pretty awesome morning in school. It's always good to catch up with my dearest 1141b.Had op rehearsal , sat down and shake leg , gossip a little and DANG it is time to go home! Then I went compass point with Miss Eva Tan Ying , and we had our awesome long john breakfast. Gonna spend the rest of my day reading some novels or watching some drama. -WHAT A GOOD LIFE EH! :D

Till then... See you readers!

Thank you for always ignoring me , I finally learnt how to live without you.

Just as how you always think that i am just another person in your life , I have

learnt to think more of me and less of you. There is no denying that your messages

still have the ability to ignite my overwhelming passion but hey dude , I think I am

over your mind fucking. Your presence is a bonus , your absence will only make me

stronger. I have no idea why you were so important.

The past we had is still rather important to me , I just don't live there anymore.

Song that suits my mood - Listen